Today I turned on my computer. This was the first time this year, which I mean that sounds like no biggie. Its still only January 21st. But I haven’t been on my computer since April 2019. This is very symbolic of the kind of weird ass year we have had. It all started last December when a fluke case of bronchitis turned into a severe asthma attack, which hospitalized me for 8 days. It was super scary and left my body recovering for months. 9 months to be exact! Because not only did my lungs stop working like they should, we also had a confirmed pregnancy day 5 in hospital. I can tell you we were happy, but we were also scared.
Good news though! After a tough pregnancy, a little nugget named Archie was born and my heart grew. He had the roundest little cheeks and the cutest little nose. He is 5 months old now and just the juiciest sweetest baby there ever could be. He is my third baby and my third boy.
As some of you know, I struggle with an anxiety disorder and depression. It comes and goes. Sometimes after having my babies I get the post partum stuff too. This time it hit hard and with ferocity. I was diagnosed with severe post partum anxiety and post partum depression. It’s been trialing but we are getting through it. With family help, medication, my hubs, doctors, and support counselors I am getting through it. I am starting to see some light. I’m starting to do things that I used to. I feel like a haze has been lifted and I feel strong.
I wanted to share this with all of you because I have been so absent and have put my shop on the back burner. But, I feel like this is the beginning of my return and I cannot wait to get back to making and over sharing!
* ALL IMAGES ARE FROM CAPTURED IN AMBER PHOTOGRAPHY (SHE'S AMAZING)
Love, Elena xo